You turn to your “god,” your “Jesus,” because you just wouldn’t be able to handle the fact that you’re a SHITTY FUCKING PERSON WHO DESERVES NOTHING. You are literally the worst fucking human being that I know and I’m ashamed of the fact that I have to call you my “father.” Fuck you. Fuck. You.
I’m really shitty at making people feel better.
I’m stuck between wanting:
1. A long lasting relationship with my soulmate who supports me and protects me and is my partner and we are completely bad ass together and in love
2. Wanting to have casual sex
3. Being independent and having a loyal cat while I’m married to my career